ash4love

I feel I must sincerely apologize for my sudden and unexplained disappearance. My life just got hectic out of nowhere and now that things are settling (a bit at least) I feel I can resurface for some air. I pray you all can forgive me for my absence.

Now, a quick update on my life. I'm 21, working pretty much full time as a server, my boyfriend moved in with me and we are currently looking for a new apartment (stressful shit that is), my last laptop was stolen but LUCKILY I had all my files on a flash drive and on my boyfriend's desktop so I got a new laptop and am up and running. Lucy (my new laptop) is basically the sexiest piece of hardware I've ever seen. My kitten, Reno, is doing much better. He got his pin out three weeks early and he's just the funniest little guy I've ever seen. Everyone loves him....he has more charisma than any other cat I've ever met. I also took some time and started writing AtPS again so hopefully we can get chapters posted and not let this be another FitB debacle.

Part of why I'm back is that I found out my favorite customer at work is a writer. If you're into Sci-fi/Fantasy, you may have heard of CC Finlay or Charles Coleman Finlay (Charlie to me because I'm cool like that) so he really inspired me to take some time to work on writing again. Makes you realize that any ole schmuck can have talent with a pen (or in my case a keyboard) and I'm not ready to give up on my dreams yet.

It may take some time, but I'm trying to get through my 2000 messages. I still have a lot on my plate so while I don't expect to make a full comeback yet, I'm definitely on my way.

By the way, I have no clue is up with the llamas, but thanks for the six I got while I was away!

So it's been forever since I've updated. I've been here, but mostly in spirit. I'm closing in on 500 deviations and 100 journals/comments/activity messages. I'm having a weird time with life right now. Not bad, just difficult. Still working a lot and I had the flu/an upper respiratory infection for the last three weeks. I may also have asthma. I keep having coughing fits and trouble breathing and I need to go to the ER but I don't feel like spending three hours in a waiting room on a rare day off or worse, one of the few days I get with the boyfriend. I also got a kitten two weeks ago. His name is Reno. Two days after I got him, his leg was broken while playing with a puppy and he's since had a 960 dollar surgery. He is fine and is the sweetest little kitty ever, but he is also jealous. Hm...turning 21 tomorrow but I have to work for the next three days so no celebrating for me. I also got my Ohio license yesterday. Makes me an Ohio resident...though I had to retake the written portion of the driving test. Thank God most of that is common sense because I didn't find out I had to retake it until I went to the BMV to get my license renewed. Uhh...not much else is new. Don't expect much of a comeback in the immediate future. Maybe eventually but for now, I don't see me having the time anytime soon. I guess I'll peace out for now.

[EDIT]1. Post these rules.
2. Each tagged person must post 10 things about themselves on their journal.
3. At the end, you have to choose and tag 10 people and post their icons on the same journal.
4. Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
5. No tag-backs. ;D


1.I have found and lost my soul mate. Now I'm trying (and failing) to move on.
2.I am a difficult woman, but I put my heart into everything and usually it ends up broken.
3.It took me almost 20 years, but I finally think I'm beautiful.
4.I have suffered more than anyone should ever have to. I have lived through rape, depression, my family falling apart, cheaters, liars, and as mentioned above, losing my soul mate. But I haven't given up and I remain positive.
5.People think I'm a whiner, but complaining is cathartic to me. They don't have to listen and just saying things will make me feel better.
6.I don't think most of my friends realize how much I need them in my life.
7.I self-sabotage.
8.I know more about football than any straight woman should. In fact, I know more about football than most men.
9.Physically, I'm 80. Mentally I'm 30. I'm a decade from the lower of those two ages.
10.I am continuing to make the best of my life, even though things fall apart more than they come together.

I tag because I can...

Ah what boredom brings to you.
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Figured I should update....it's been well over a month. I've been working my ass off. At first, I hated my job and my boss...he's a hard ass but last week something shifted and now he respects me a helluva lot more and doesn't treat me like crap anymore. I'm starting to enjoy work...a little. I'm still utterly exhausted all the time and working so many hours that I have no social life. I'm very lonely, but I should be going home for Christmukkah so that's positive news.

Well, I would thank everyone that entered my contest, but I only received one entry so I would like to thank for her Epilogue to the Faded in the Blackout epilogue. She did a great job and will be rewarded for her hard work shortly. READ IT! yamikochan.deviantart.com/art/…

You may have noticed that angelsarefascists and I have started posting our new novel, As The Pendulum Swings. Read it. That's an order. I'm also trying to get art done of the characters.

I have been granted requests by:




And here is past art done for us. There is more that I shall find soon and post.



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Thank you everyone that has done requests/commissions for angelsarefascists and myself for our new novel, As the Pendulum Swings.

Finally, I am in a few art trades/Club Challenges.
- Photo of old architecture...TBC end of this month.
- Fanfic request...Not Started
- WishMaker Challenge...Brainstorming

Hmmm....I think that's it.